I love how nectarine juice dripping all over my fingers and chin. Nectarines should be featured in pornos because they are pretty damn sexy. I dyed my hair last night. I love walking around the house with what looks like a big old bloody head. Sometimes I love the chemical smell that lingers in my hair for 4-5 days afterwards. Sometimes that same smell makes me sick. I love looking at the color of my freshly dyed hair in my reflection in car windows, bus windows, department store windows. My hair glows like a sunset and wish I had been born w/this color! I am currently carrying around $300.00 in my change purse, which makes me very nervous. I am going to the bank in a few minutes. Every day that I take a bus I am a little less scared about a viaduct or highway overpass crashing down on me in the event of an earthquake. It has taken me more than a year to stop freaking out about this, but I still do freak out about potential earthquakes sometimes. I don't know how I can come to work every day. I've only had this job for 2 months and I really don't want to be here. Its not HERE its the work. I wish I could be a waitress or work in a bookstore or just something DIFFERENT. But I'd wanna get paid the money I make here, which is impossible, probably. When I woke up this morning I fantasized about teaching a class of teenagers. I fantasized about dragging a portable child's record player into class, playing various rock-n-roll 45's and having the students right music reviews. I think that would be a great assignment!! Maybe I should be a music journalist, not a medical biller or high school English teacher or Librarian. I wish I could just get paid for eating brownies, mashed potatoes, reading fiction and playing with kitties. I guess everyone has to grow up sometime, FUCK!
2002-06-04 : Rotting Fruit
Why does all the fruit I buy rot almost immediately? I bought a bag with 4 lovely nectarines 2 days ago. Just now I had to throw out 2 of the nectarines. Is it something about me personally? Ha!
