Anyways, I sent Larry a letter because...well, just because. I love writing letters. I'm afraid of scaring him off, but then again, why? I don't even know what I want. I just know I want to feel the way I do now and did this weekend....I don't wanna search for somebody to do that with. The possibly GOOD thing about a long distance romance is that it remains fresh because there isn't enough time to fight or be petty when you only see this person once or twice a month.
We've emailed back and forth a couple of times and he's going to try to come up here and visit in about a month. I wish we both had more $$ because then we could visit a little more often, but we'll just see how it goes. Wow...I left last Friday..it's now Wednesday afternoon and I haven't seen or heard from Jason at all. I mean, I know I just got back last night but I'm surprised he hasn't called to see how my trip was or anything. Maybe he's having alot of fun in his new place. I just realized this weekend (and I suppose this new infatuation has something to do with it) that I don't WANT to fix my marriage nor do I ever want to live w/jason again. I just hope he'll come to the same conclusions. We will remain friends. I will do all I can to ensure that because I really do love him, but we make great friends and shitty husband/wife/lovers. I wish this work-day would end. I just want to go home and day dream. I'm so far gone right now that I don't think I can even concentrate on a book. I also lose my appetite when I get like this...hey, instant weight loss program. I'll definetly only eat lightly. Well, that's it.
