Anyways, that is where my sudden need to re-read Castaneda comes in and I am thoroughly re-enjoying "The Teachings of Don Juan: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge"...anyways, enough of about this stuff. What else did I want to write about?? Oh yea, I have a "group interview" for a job at the University of Oregon's bookstore. The interview is could last as long as an hour and a half. This makes no sense to me. It's working a minimum wage job probably shelving alot of textbooks or doing buy backs, etc. (which I did about 13 years ago in Illinois for the University of Illinois' bookstore)...I don't mean to sound like I'm over-qualified (which I am, actually) or "above" having this job, because I'd actually like to do something like this for the time being, but I wonder why the interviewing process is so lengthy for this sort of job? Anyways, the group interview is next week.
I want to go see Napoleon Dynamite again. I hear they have now tacked on an alternate ending (or extra footage) or something..plus, I just fucking LOVED that movie. I've even been going on chat boards to discuss it (I really need a JOB, don't I? Ha ha!)
I also want to see "The Village"...I tend to like M. Night Shamalayan (sp?)'s flicks in varying degrees. He was on the "The View" today. He's kind of a sexy, funny guy (I find certain men from India or with that heritage extremely attractive..I love his particular skin color..it's just..such a nice shade of golden brown) and well, his name kicks ass. I guess he just goes by "Night" (rather than "M." or "M. Night"
I was thinking about weird phobias (or "near-phobias") that I have. I think I'll list them and tell you the ones I have worked through and the ones I haven't. Still haven't gotten over my driving phobia. The thought of driving a car any further than to the bottom of our street makes me feel a panic attack coming on. I still have "driving" nightmares..I always lose control of the car. It sucks. I'd REALLY like to get over this phobia.
I also still am somehwat phobic of getting pap tests and having pelvic exams. Just that whole gynecological experience makes me shaky, but when I do have health insurance I will go have it done because it's been a few years. I guess you could call this a functional phobia...I am extremely nervous but I have been pretty good about getting these things done every year or two (and I've never had an abnormal pap..YEA ME!) despite the fact that I have to have a friend go with me and hold my hand, and that I ALWAYS break into a nasty cold sweat when I'm on the table. Each time I go in and have the exam I get a little bit more confident and less phobic, so that's good.
I used to have an elevator phobia, but I got over that (I don't know how..I'm just not scard of elevators anymore)....
Other things that make me nervous or uncomfortable...riding a bike. I like doing it, but in the back of my head I'm always convinced I'm gonna have an accident (I think it ties into the driving phobia...not feeling like I have total control over this object. I prefer walking or taking the bus!) I also don't like the inside of my wrists touched or the front of my throat...I would never let the acupuncturist I had put needles on those areas, nor do I like them even lightly stroked....I have NO Idea why I am squeamish about those areas. I also freak out if somebody playfully puts a pillow over my head...I have a big "I'm suffocating, I can't breathe" fear..which is probably why though I enjoy swimming, I can't be in water for TOO long...fear of blacking out and drowning or something. Fears and phobias are so strange, aren't they??