Luckily, I took an entire klonopin to ease my nerves before I even went in for my appointment. Everybody was very gentle and understanding and I asked that someone come and hold my hand through the thing. The Nurse Practitioner was very gentle and kind and before I knew it, I had another annual exam and a bag of birth control pills (enough for a year) under my belt. I am proud of myself. Very proud indeed. I celebrated by going to Blockbuster and renting some movie set in Ireland (can't rememember the name..something about "Boys and Girls of County Clare") and for nostalgia sake I rented "River's Edge" and "Repo Man"..I also bought two boxes of Raisinets!!
I need to be working on my story instead of writing in here. It's called "White Crepe" (working title) and it's about a family stricken one by one with the Great Influenza of 1918 (I just read most of a large, technical book on this historical pandemic)...
So, despite being unemployed..I made myself conquer a fear the best I could, I'm in a period of creativity and I'm cooking Pork with Caraway Cream tonight.
Happy Hump Day!!