I cannot get Thee Michelle Gun Elephant's "Danny Go" out of my head. I remember seeing them with J back in 1999. It was one of our first "dates" and we both fell in love with the band. They were so full of energy while playing. Go to YouTube and look up "Thee Michelle Gun Elephant"..it may not be most people's taste, but it certainly is mine. They were all dressed in black suits and I just think Japanese garage rock dudes are hot anyway..the singer..whoa! Delicious. Ok..why am I talking about this?
I arrived home from Denver yesterday afternoon. Larry picked me up at the airport and gave me a beautiful bouquet (sp?) of flowers...mostly colors of dark orange, peach and dark red. It had some peach roses and some bright orange Gerber daisies. He knows exactly what I like. I was THRILLED to get flowers at the airport (or anytime in general) and I found the gesture incredibly romantic.
A few weeks ago we were watching tv and I said (only 1/4 seriously) that "hey, we should get married"...I was in some fantasy wedding land (God knows why) and it really struck a nerve in Larry. I never thought he wanted to get married. I've always said I would never marry again, but he confessed to me that while I was gone (once he knew I wanted to try to work on our relationship some more) he called several govermental agencies in IRELAND to look into what it would take for us to get married there. The idea is So romantic, but I don't even know if I want to get married or if WE should get married. Is he doing this to try to make sure he never loses me again or what? I told him I had to think about it. He knows I'm scared of getting married for a fucking THIRD time and having it not work out. But I can't entirely say the idea of marrying Larry (who, for the most part, has been the best mate I have EVER had) is repelling..it is appealing in many ways...but the big "M" word...ugh. I told myself "never again"..maybe I shouldn't think so drastically. I cannot tell him whether I want to marry him until I am towards the end of my trip. We will see. Anyways, it is all kind of unexpected and sweet.
I totally destroyed most of my "Lonely Planet's Europe On a Shoestring" book. I'd been told it is easier to rip out chapters from the book that pertain to where you want to go rather than lugging the whole thing around, so Larry and I carefully broke the book's spine and I now have probably half of the book ready to take with me. It will be a lot lighter. The experience of ripping up a book was slightly disturbing to me. I felt like I was committing some cardinal sin. I have such a love for the written word. Then again, this was a travel guide, and not "Crime and Punishment" or "Steppenwolf" or something. I will be arriving in Amsterdam 3 WEEKS from today..unbelievable!
