Earlier that day I made us BLT's, which were good as well. I can feel my arteries clogging and I don't really give a fuck. It's good food. Jay put on the Violent Femmes (the album with all the best songs/"hits" on it) and we danced around a little, which was fun. I never liked that band in high school, but now I think they are great. I've always liked "Gone Daddy Gone" the best...xylophone solo!! Then I went and got a 6 pack of Henry Weinhard's Hefeweizen and a pack of smokes (God...I'm just gonna smoke and quit again when I feel like it..no beating myself up..what's done is done....I feel guilty, though...ok, enough!) and we sat out on the steps/porch of our "walk-up" and the sun was almost blinding me and we drank our beer out there and felt almost like summertime. Then one of our neighbors, Eric came up and smoked w/us and we gave him a beer. He's nice enough and I don't know what it is about him that makes me feel this way but he makes me feel a little creeped out. I just get a slightly icky vibe from him. Strange, and I could have sworn that when he walked up to us (he was coming back from class) that he said "Hey..." and then something about "niggers"...I probably heard him wrong but now I'm convinced he's a racist pile of dung and that just bugs the shit out of me. That could be part of why I suddenly feel like I don't want to talk to him. I might go smoke on the back steps from now on in order to avoid having to converse with him when he's smoking out front.
We watched Susan Hayward in "I Want to Live!" as we drank our beers with the blinds closed. I loved it. It was sort of a bummer, though. Especially the ending!! The soundtrack was great...really typical, really dramatic jazz from the mid 50's.
I got an email from Ron, my ex-boyfriend whom I've written about in here before (he's the Radio Free Europe journalist that was travelling in Iraq with the US military.) I'm glad to hear that he's just flown back to Prague in one piece (he said he flew back with "nine body bags") and I hope he gets a long, well-deserved vacation after all that death and violence!!