Tracy played me this Dutch band from the 70's (You'd have to see what they look like to get how super stupid cool they are) called Lemming. "Lucifera"...it's great Alice-Cooper-cum-Rocky-Horror-Picture-Show-Does-the-Beach-Boys-if-They-Were-More-Doomy...Does that description make sense? Ha Ha. I also watched "King of the Hill" and "That 70's Show" with Trace. It's nice sitting with a girlfriend in bed laughing at stupid TV. I'm glad Trace is here! We both agree that we need to get our asses OUT OF THIS HOUSE more often and go the library or shops in Eugene or go on Nature Walks..Hell, I'll even visit the gun shops, I don't care (just kidding!) I think I might "smudge" the house to rid it of it's VORTEX OF SLEEP, RESTLESSNESS and BOREDOM. We need a pyramid of power going through the center of the house. We all need to be doing intepretive dancing in the living room and making gourmet meals. All I ever seem to want to eat is tortilla chips and massive amounts of tofu pate (Lite N Spicy)!! That shit is ADDICTIVE!
What else? Had really good sex tonight. It made my legs jello-like. Thank god for THE SEX..YOWZA! I hope noone in the house can hear us doin' it. See, maybe Tracita can just WRITE IN HER DIARY if she can hear us instead of embarrassing me by actually saying "We can hear you"....ha ha. I don't know how sound travels in this house. It's not like I'm a screamer or anything, but I'm not a quiet mouse either. God, now I'm embarrassing myself.
So, Larry is Scorpio and most of them have big dark secrets (or maybe only Larry) and tonight I told him that I thought he blocked alot of depression out. I told him that he walks around with a little bit of sadness surrounding him and he told me I was exactly right, and then mr. mystery man said he has never told anybody WHY he's so sad and he never will and he will not talk about it, period, and me being so nosey and inquisitive..this is driving me fucking INSANE! I mean, it isn't my business, honestly. I will try to let it go, but I feel the need to discover his trauma or whatever it is from his childhood. Damn, maybe I should go into counseling. He kept asking me to "please drop it, I'll never tell you..I'll never tell anyone the source of this sadness...not EVER!" And I pushed a bit more but then I gave up because I don't want him to get mad at me, but now I'm restless because I need to KNOW! But he'll never tell, so be it. Fucking Brick Wall....I will wedge the blocks out piece by piece slowly if he'll ever let me. I really have to have somebody I'm intimate with really open up to me or I'll be tortured (I'm being melodramatic)
Anyways, I'm gonna go catch up on my diary reading, and then maybe in 2 hours I can go to sleep (it's 11:23 pm)